Sport 16: Autumn 1996
Paola Bilbrough
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Paola Bilbrough
Countries Lodge inside the Body
1. A Letter to Maura
This morning Maura, I woke fists clenched,
body worn, all night sleep evaded me
Shifting my bed from room to room,
head facing west then east, stalking sleep
I woke thinking of land—
how stubborn it is, how countries
lodge inside the body long
after you have moved elsewhere
Salt wind through a beech forest
sea sounding on a black sand shore
and the sternum a long stretch of earth
Here, winter bodies marzipan pale
smell of wet manuka and old oil skins
when we parted the new whey scent
of fresh sweat, the sky soaking up evening
This morning Maura, I walked
through magnolias weighted with
blossoms, huge and dove-like,
petals poised to open and fall away
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2. A Letter From Maura
Yesterday I smelt you
on the subway. Pressed into
a stranger, your perfume
on the nape of her neck
This morning I woke early
dog barking hoarsely
under the ginkgo tree,
wet heat of summer’s infancy
I got up, cracked walnuts
for pesto at dawn
Kenichi still sleeping and
no one to say ‘don’t use your teeth’
The women in our street
silent, flower petal skin
cooking for their husbands, fish
sliced down the centre eyes still in place
I am good at the language now
and feel quite proud. Still,
I will never learn to shake our futon out
like a good Japanese wife
Well, I took myself out of the house
felt vacuum packed in our tiny space
above the city. Cycled until
I reached rice fields
Near a roadside shrine a bandaged tree,
trunk wrapped tightly to keep the shape
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I thought angrily of foot binding
—you know how I get
But I stole a half-ripe fig;
leant against cloth covered bark
biting into green flesh tipped pink
didn’t care if someone caught me
A Speckled Riverstone
Nina writes to Sol
Tongue-and-groove floorboards
native timber which lets in the drafts
Each night I take to bed a hot
speckled riverstone, sleep deeply
anchored by its weight. Still wearing
Asia, an elusive scent on my skin
pulling out episodes for any listener
like pale bulbs from rich black soil
How one evening in Kyoto
a trainee geisha girl beckoned you
to accompany her, but in Japan
an invitation given once is hardly
an invitation. On the river banks
a man wanting English conversation
took my hand and said: ‘What is your
occupation? I am architecture.’
We sipped from cans which declared:
‘This chance romance between true spring
water and fine coffee beans has brought
you, reader this lucky drink.’
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How inside Beijing’s Forbidden City
James Bond was giving guided tours
on cassette. Outside, under Mao’s portrait
a shoal of cyclists returning home
Solemn, I said: ‘Because China is
communist a red traffic light means go.’
Delighted you almost stepped into
a mêlée of limbs and spokes
Now, sitting in the curve of an enormous pine
a nasturtium bed below, and over the coast
a plane taking off for an unknown destination
I wonder Sol, are you still lured by
the seductiveness of absurdity?
Across the Briny
Sol writes to Nina
Dearie!! over salt and pepper sands
across the briny this letter arrives
and bows, picks its nose with its toes
I don’t remember the traffic lights
though I know I wanted to see Mao’s body
—a rare display, but Ellen was afraid
she might spit in his face, and you
had read he never brushed his teeth
Reluctant tourists both I had to cajole
and drag you to the Great Wall
Ellen showed off my eyelashes to you
teasingly you named me ‘Boyflesh’
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Yesterday on the tube, bedraggled
middle-aged businessmen, younger
perky kiss-ass types. One bloke
roast beef faced informed his neighbour
‘The British pound is the world’s
greatest coin, it’s solid, you really feel
like there’s something in your hand …’
If you were here how we would have laughed
but straight-faced performing train theatre
I distributed gâteau, the words ‘French
moustache’ etched across upper lip
Every night before sleep, a projectionist
rolls up his sleeves behind my lids
and I have Japan on screen again
Last night at intermission, Nina
a fleeting glimpse of your country—
deep forest green, long empty beeches
Teething irks apart it’s blue skies and
scented vanilla here, sitting in a wicker chair,
Earl’s Court, Frank Sinatra filling the room
I’m like a Japanese, slowly learning to dabble
a toe, wade in and out of English currents



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